This post is a year later than I anticipated, and several years later than most people wanted. A lot has happened in the years since I last posted under this name. A lot has changed in the world and a lot has changed for me personally. But many of the fundamentals have remained the same. I am still in Los Angeles. And I am still not only committed to, but actively involved in sex work organizing.
Before anything else I need to give credit to the fucking amazing team of people who have made this possible. From the bottom of my heart, I cannot thank you enough. You, my friends, my team, my comrades, my loves… this is also about the power of your collective strength, determination, generosity, and of course, sheer stubbornness.
So here are two projects that I am proud as fuck to be a part of:
Hookers Army – Los Angeles (HALA) – we have a weekly self-defense collective for sex workers! We take time for peer support and learn / share / train self-defense tactics! For more information email: email@example.com
Sex, Please! Radio – KPFK Safe Harbor - Weekly live call-in show about sex, gender, and sexual politics led by a team of queers, sex workers, and sex educators.
Wednesdays Midnight (12:00am) – 90.7FM Los Angeles, 98.7FM Santa Barbara, 93.7FM N. San Diego, 99.5FM Ridgecrest - Worldwide streaming – KPFK.org or TuneIn Radio App. Call in live! 818-985-5735 (KPFK)
Follow us on Twitter: @SexPleaseRadio or email us firstname.lastname@example.org
Looking for my writing? I’m already flattered! At the moment there isn’t a place where my writing is centralized. I haven’t been publishing very much in any case, though it’s probable that will change soon. Ya’ll know I just can’t help myself. But I’m pretty pleased with my current work and am not actively looking for extra gigs right now…. though if you have leads or requests – I’m always open! I like hearing what other people are up to and trying to connect people to others or resources that might help if I’m not able to do so myself.
I won’t be updating this blog again. Jessie Nicole as a persona just doesn’t exist anymore. But I’m not deleting anything either. It would feel like bad karma after all the hours and wisdom I’ve collected from old blogs of other sex workers / activists / heroes. But look to the information above for updates or below the cut for more info on where to find me around the internet.
Finally – I’m sorry. I owe more people than I even know an apology for disappearing. I’m sorry to the friends I worried. I’m sorry to the comrades I let down. I’m sorry for the work I left unfinished. I’m sorry to the people who were looking to me for help or support and couldn’t find me. I made mistakes. I was wrong. And I apologize for that with everything I have.
I needed that time to get my shit together. I needed that time to heal and grow and learn and take care of things. There were crises to be handled and pets to be cuddled and work to be done. But I should have gone about it differently. And I am sorry for the hurt, confusion, concern, and anger that I caused. That whole “running away and disappearing” thing is something I’m still trying to wrestle with in myself.